I was so fumed. I was so disgusted. I was so disappointed.
And I was going to kao bei here. But I kind of lost the initial indignation.
Now I'm just so sianz and abit jaded.
I hate it when people take others for granted. I hate it when kindness and goodwill are taken for granted.
Life's like that. The industry is like. Welcome to showbiz.
Yes, I know. But that doesn't mean I cannot get sad & disappointed & disgusted over it. So don't bother using those jaded lines on me. *ok, indignation levels rising*
That block head with the low EQ, I'd long given up on him. So I didn't even felt too bothered afterwards when I did not get the display of gratitude nor regrets, even if it were just out of formality, from him when the hard part of things were completed and they decided to burn the bridge before I could join them on the other bank.
But the last straw came when he did not even bother to show his face at the time of a fellow friend's, if not at least a colleague's, grief. That was when I decided that he had finally exhausted his friendship credits and proved himself an unworthy contact in my msn's friends list. I'm still allowing that contact to stay there though, just in case I need it for work-related matters.
So it came as a great INSULT when I found out that some of the former team mates we worked with, and even my current boss and AD, thought that I had an intimate relationship with him before. *PUKE!* Perleeassse! I've much better taste than that! SUPER GROSS! And they had thought so because they couldn't understand why I'd been so willing to work so hard for his project. "Beyond the professional requirements" as some would describe it.
Firstly, I'd never consider the project as "his" ever since he broke his initial promise and made me go about begging for favours just so that he could fulfill his dreams -- with naive and ignorant disregards for the kind of sacrifices others would have to make, and thus the kind of returns we at least should offer back to compensate. When you take something, you've gota give something in return. That's only fair. Life has to attain a certain level of balance so that neither side would feel short-changed. So that everyone would be happy. The so called win-win situation. He didn't seem to understand that. And even if he did, he did little to help achieve that equilibrium. He's a disgrace to Libras. Perhaps he's too pampered. Perhaps his EQ was just too low. Whatever it was, he did not inspire me to work for him.
On the other hand, in my shameless pursuit for kindness and generosity, I did came upon some really wonderful people. People who wanted to help us make the project work. People who value other ideals in life more than just monetary benefits. People who appreciate my friendship amidst my appeals and was willing to do it for me. Honestly, I was very touched by these friends. And honestly, it was for the sake of all these people that I'd worked so hard. I didn't want the project to fail because I didn't want to let down these lovely people who had contributed their part and hoped for the project to succeed.
They didnt know about the lousy leadership certain block head possesses. They didnt know about the inadequacy of that same block head in dealing with his creative decisions and PR duties to the people who worked with him or those who offered to help him. They didnt have to know because it would have been very upsetting. So I did my best to cover up for him. Not because I wanted to save his face. It was simply because I didnt wana disappoint them.
Thus I was very angry when I discovered that the organization belonging to one of these kind people was not given the proper recognition they deserve and we'd promised. I raised the question to the current team and the replies I got were pretty ridiculous. But it wasn't the rubbishy and patronizing answers that irked me. It was the blame-shifting. The attempt to shift the blame to me. WAT THE HELL!?!?!
Through all the shit during those months I'd made some real friends. And amongst them, there was someone who had inspired me and kept me going. He was the one who had started the whole thing with Block Head and myself. We were the initial core team. And it was great working with him because we were able to fight alongside one another and support one another throughout the ordeal, especially with Block Head's passive involvement. It was almost like working with my 死党 Ah Boon back in AHS days. Thus he had been a close comrade whom I'd respected and wouldn't mind going back to offer help to.
Yet he became the one who'd tried to shift the blame to me, after cutting me off from them for 2 months. Claimed that no one had told them about who should be recognized publicly. Rubbish. Firstly, no one bothered to check with me and 2ndly I'd mentioned from day 1 that that was the exchange for the generosity given by the organization. Also, it is pure COMMON SENSE that you provide maximum exposure in return for the ones who had contributed the most and asked from you the least. This organization didnt ask for a single cent, yet they had sacrificed their resources to supply us with the manpower to follow the project EVERYDAY. Even when it came to a point where their generosity to us is eating into their own resources for survival, they still continued to support us just simply because they had given their word.
But the ultimate blame shifting came when I confronted on the fact of a wrongly credited name of one of the other organizations that slogged for us. I'd boldly proclaim that I do not believe I'd supplied the wrong name before I left. And this "friend" called me and told me in his own voice that "you did gave us the wrong name". I felt embarrassed and guilty, yet at the same time disbelief, for I remembered from day 1 the uniqueness of that name. When I went home to check, I realized someone had blatantly lied through his teeth, simply to get himself off the hook. I probably wouldn't have taken it so badly if he had simply refused to reply me -- just like what Block Head did when I confronted him of his absence when our friend was grieving.
I'm very disappointed. Really am. And I think 老天爷 must have been looking out for me to arrange my departure from them. Even though I would see it more like a slam in the face than a graceful amiable departure. Whatever it is, I'm glad I'm no longer associated with them.
How true it is the wisdom behind this line.
And I was going to kao bei here. But I kind of lost the initial indignation.
Now I'm just so sianz and abit jaded.
I hate it when people take others for granted. I hate it when kindness and goodwill are taken for granted.
Life's like that. The industry is like. Welcome to showbiz.
Yes, I know. But that doesn't mean I cannot get sad & disappointed & disgusted over it. So don't bother using those jaded lines on me. *ok, indignation levels rising*
That block head with the low EQ, I'd long given up on him. So I didn't even felt too bothered afterwards when I did not get the display of gratitude nor regrets, even if it were just out of formality, from him when the hard part of things were completed and they decided to burn the bridge before I could join them on the other bank.
But the last straw came when he did not even bother to show his face at the time of a fellow friend's, if not at least a colleague's, grief. That was when I decided that he had finally exhausted his friendship credits and proved himself an unworthy contact in my msn's friends list. I'm still allowing that contact to stay there though, just in case I need it for work-related matters.
So it came as a great INSULT when I found out that some of the former team mates we worked with, and even my current boss and AD, thought that I had an intimate relationship with him before. *PUKE!* Perleeassse! I've much better taste than that! SUPER GROSS! And they had thought so because they couldn't understand why I'd been so willing to work so hard for his project. "Beyond the professional requirements" as some would describe it.
Firstly, I'd never consider the project as "his" ever since he broke his initial promise and made me go about begging for favours just so that he could fulfill his dreams -- with naive and ignorant disregards for the kind of sacrifices others would have to make, and thus the kind of returns we at least should offer back to compensate. When you take something, you've gota give something in return. That's only fair. Life has to attain a certain level of balance so that neither side would feel short-changed. So that everyone would be happy. The so called win-win situation. He didn't seem to understand that. And even if he did, he did little to help achieve that equilibrium. He's a disgrace to Libras. Perhaps he's too pampered. Perhaps his EQ was just too low. Whatever it was, he did not inspire me to work for him.
On the other hand, in my shameless pursuit for kindness and generosity, I did came upon some really wonderful people. People who wanted to help us make the project work. People who value other ideals in life more than just monetary benefits. People who appreciate my friendship amidst my appeals and was willing to do it for me. Honestly, I was very touched by these friends. And honestly, it was for the sake of all these people that I'd worked so hard. I didn't want the project to fail because I didn't want to let down these lovely people who had contributed their part and hoped for the project to succeed.
They didnt know about the lousy leadership certain block head possesses. They didnt know about the inadequacy of that same block head in dealing with his creative decisions and PR duties to the people who worked with him or those who offered to help him. They didnt have to know because it would have been very upsetting. So I did my best to cover up for him. Not because I wanted to save his face. It was simply because I didnt wana disappoint them.
Thus I was very angry when I discovered that the organization belonging to one of these kind people was not given the proper recognition they deserve and we'd promised. I raised the question to the current team and the replies I got were pretty ridiculous. But it wasn't the rubbishy and patronizing answers that irked me. It was the blame-shifting. The attempt to shift the blame to me. WAT THE HELL!?!?!
Through all the shit during those months I'd made some real friends. And amongst them, there was someone who had inspired me and kept me going. He was the one who had started the whole thing with Block Head and myself. We were the initial core team. And it was great working with him because we were able to fight alongside one another and support one another throughout the ordeal, especially with Block Head's passive involvement. It was almost like working with my 死党 Ah Boon back in AHS days. Thus he had been a close comrade whom I'd respected and wouldn't mind going back to offer help to.
Yet he became the one who'd tried to shift the blame to me, after cutting me off from them for 2 months. Claimed that no one had told them about who should be recognized publicly. Rubbish. Firstly, no one bothered to check with me and 2ndly I'd mentioned from day 1 that that was the exchange for the generosity given by the organization. Also, it is pure COMMON SENSE that you provide maximum exposure in return for the ones who had contributed the most and asked from you the least. This organization didnt ask for a single cent, yet they had sacrificed their resources to supply us with the manpower to follow the project EVERYDAY. Even when it came to a point where their generosity to us is eating into their own resources for survival, they still continued to support us just simply because they had given their word.
But the ultimate blame shifting came when I confronted on the fact of a wrongly credited name of one of the other organizations that slogged for us. I'd boldly proclaim that I do not believe I'd supplied the wrong name before I left. And this "friend" called me and told me in his own voice that "you did gave us the wrong name". I felt embarrassed and guilty, yet at the same time disbelief, for I remembered from day 1 the uniqueness of that name. When I went home to check, I realized someone had blatantly lied through his teeth, simply to get himself off the hook. I probably wouldn't have taken it so badly if he had simply refused to reply me -- just like what Block Head did when I confronted him of his absence when our friend was grieving.
I'm very disappointed. Really am. And I think 老天爷 must have been looking out for me to arrange my departure from them. Even though I would see it more like a slam in the face than a graceful amiable departure. Whatever it is, I'm glad I'm no longer associated with them.
"先学会做人，后学会拍戏。“
How true it is the wisdom behind this line.
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