Ah Kai's Egosphere

Ok, I'm back. =D Finally climbed out of the abyss of depression~ Heh heh... Again.

For those who are interested and are still hanging around my blog (after its prolonged dormant state, I doubt any of my friends still read....anyways), I was pretty miserable previously. But I'm ok now =D

I had only worked for 2 months and I'd accumulated over 20 days of TOIL. Basically didnt have any off day from mid-Aug to mid-Sep. And that was one of the reasons that fueled the depression...

Honestly, I'm pretty puzzled myself. The working environment is not too bad. At least not as jialat as my internship days. But I was really rather overwhelmed previously by the things I need to do... Never seem to have enough time no matter how much extra hours I was able to squeeze out from my 24hrs...

And I later realized that sometimes energy gets zapped not solely by the work itself. Adapting into a work group itself could be as energy-consuming....

Anyway, what can't kill you will only make you Stronger~

After this round of depression, I've come to realise another problem (amongst many other yet to be discovered/yet to erupt..) of myself. I have to admit, I am a workaholic. And this is no joking matter anymore.

I used to joke about this but I think my condition has reached a point that I'd better reign myself in before I drop dead on my desk like those Japaneses...

So yup, taking steps to "cure" myself currently~ HAhaha... As always~

To be honest, I think I won't stay in this line forever. Starting to reconsider my career path again Haha.... Starting to fantasize about all the other things I could be doing already~ Heh heh.... I have a vision setting up a social enterprise to help people suffering from depression, and another of setting up a transport and vehicle rental company, and another of a budget travel planner company, and....

Heh heh heh.... Yes, my 三分钟热度 syndrome kicking in again...

At present, I still do not have any concrete, tangible sense of achievement... But at least I think I won't allow myself to pia blindly anymore~ Giving myself a deadline of up to the end of the next movie project to decide if I still wana stay here... Afterall, that movie was the reason why I joined in the first place =p

Well, at least have identified another problem. Boon once told me that his mentor (a current great master in the theatre industry) said people who have the ability to self-reflect and self-assess will become successful people in future. Both of us took comfort in that even though we're not sure whether we are deluding ourselves or really on our way to discover our ultimate success... But whatever empowers you won't kill you either =p Hahaha~!

And yesh! I finally got a proper off day today!!! Yeah~~ Even though I still had to run some errands for work... Managed to get some time to walk and shop around without any disturbance hee hee~ And spent like near $200.... kns... At least I got a new sexy laptop bag and some skin care products! Hee~~~

Ok, time to sleep. Sacrificed too much of my beauty sleep liao... Soon to die of sleep deprivation even if I dun die of workaholism =p Haha~