Ah Kai's Egosphere

My best friend is now officially "Mrs Yap". Damn excited and happy for her!!!!

How time flies~~ I still remember the days when we would sit outside the old building classroom, leaning against the wall and fantasize about our future partners and how our weddings would be like...

Her banquet is due next May and she wanted me to emcee along with another friend of hers. So honoured! HAhaha~ and just now while bathing I've come up with some more new ideas for the Big Day~~ Heehee! Just hope her other friend would be as sporting =p

Work has been more or less under control lately. Though there are still lots of last min deadlines to rush and fire to put out. But I'm getting the hang of it already. And yesh! Finally got me an intern!!! Woohoot!!! Finally got assistant!!! Can't wait to start working on OP stuff with her siah~~~

But first, I've to clear this other project that I'd unknowingly gotten myself into at the start of my employment. Haiz.. sometimes I'm just too kpo for my own good =p Volunteered to help out cos cudn't bare to see my other colleagues die and den get myself into the shithole. Well, at least Boss knows to appreciate la...

Have tried getting Him to come onboard to help out with it cos I personally felt he would be the best candidate, given his capabilities and financial situation. Only trouble is we're not sure if his schedule would fit the requirements of the job... Well, at least he didnt reject me straight on and I think he is genuinely interested in the job. That's good. Then I can hand over and move on to my "real" work.

As much as I'm always able to remain professional and draw definite lines between work and personal matters, I have to admit there's a part of me which want him to be in the project for selfish reasons. Yes, I desperately hope he could come on to relieve me of majority of the duties (I'll still be stuck to the project since I'm the PM), but at the same time it was partly cos I kind of wanted to see him again...

So weak... Haiz... Sub-consciously, I think I'm still waiting for him. Well, perhaps more of waiting for a definite answer. Cos I never got any real answer back then. Come to think of it... It had already been more than a year.... Yes I'd proclaimed I'd lost feelings for him.. But somehow I guess there's still a certain sense of "longing" that still lingers...

Yet I know if he really did come onboard, I would still put on my defensive armour and pretend nothing had happened and treat him like we didn't started at all. But that is IF he did come onboard at all in the first place.

Somehow have a feeling I'm gona be disappointed again. 我们毕竟是有缘无份的. But I guess a greater part of the frustration when that happen would be due to the fact that I would have to frantically find someone else to take the job lah =p Hahaha!!!

But whatever his final decision is, I will only know after the 2 major shits for this project is over. Meanwhile I'll be too busy putting out fire to think about anything else... Haiz...

First up, Shit No.1. Counting down in 8 hours...