Ah Kai's Egosphere

I'm blogging cos there's no one to talk to... or rather, no one whom I feel like talking about wat I feel like talking to.

Had a fun first attempt to organize a Singles Day~ Very simple, but fun! Heehee~~ And I have a strong feeling I'll get to throw a bigger party next year... Yes, I'm really not that optimistic about my love life *bleh*...

Not that I'm unwanted (I like have to stress that everytime haha..).. Yes I know I'm picky. But that's been discussed before so shan't go into that again.

Was just thinking, what is the whole point of getting a boyfriend/girlfriend ah??? Have a recent crush but the chemistry is kind of dying... Mainly cos even though the exchange has been very enjoyable, such "chances" do not happen often. For very objective reason such as "busy with work" loh~ Not blaming anyone, but it just got me thinking about how do you know you die die really need that someone?? Or that someone is THE ONE??

Over the years and especially after the most recent almost fairy-tale-like affair, I kind of concluded that one can actually brainwash oneself to believe that someone else is SPECIAL.

Dun believe??? Well, if you have no one in particular that you fancy at the moment, and dun mind playing with your emotions for the kick of it~ Try this:

1. Locate 1 guy/gal around you. Someone who is not too 抱歉 kind and someone you actually has a basic friendship. Like at least will smile or nod in acknowledgement when passing by each other one lah...

2. Imagine the scene of you and this person getting to know one another. Do this slowly, whenever you are free, sitting in the bus, before you sleep.. whenever you're bored oso can. Just fantasize abt the various scenarios whereby you 2 will somehow hang out together, and know each other abit more... places you would go... things you would do... Use whatever info you know about him/her from your previous or recent conversation (if any) to enhance your scenes. If no conversation, den just make up what you think he/she will like or things he/she will say. Ideas from movies or novels would come in handy here. And this is especially fun if you are the kind who likes to daydream alot.

3. Do pt 2 for as long as you like, or until you run out of ideas and get bored. Then move on to pt 4.

4. Now, imagine the scene when he/she professes his/her love to you. If you are already starting to feel a certain affection towards him/her after pt 2, you can be the protagonist that professes your love. Imagine the various ways and scenes of confession. You may choose to accept the confession or play around with him/her, rejecting first than accepting.

5. Again, do pt 4 for as long as you like. Come up with various and all ways and scenes for the confession. (by the end of it, you would probably get alot of new interesting ideas for your real confession or handling real confession anyway =p)

6. Now, after pt 5, you can move on to the marriage fantasy~ How you would do your wedding together.... blah blah blah... same steps as before lah~ just enjoy your imagination!

7. If you like, you can even move on to the  blissful after marriage life~

And I can assure you, you will find yourself feeling for this person, yearning to see him/her even during the course of your imagination very soon. And if your imagination skills are strong enough, you'll grow to believe that he/she is THE ONE for you!

That's kind of what happen for those one-sided love I believe.

Anyway i was on the topic of why the need for a boyfriend/girlfriend ya? Well, when you are someone who has survived pretty well on your own with the company of friends and family for so many years... pick up your own pieces when you crumble, earn for your own keep and pay for your expenses, have the initiative to find new things and experiences when life gets blant... and basically living life as an individual pretty fine for so long, you start to wonder what input can someone else provide to your exisiting life.

It's like, who can excite me so much that I can't do without him??? Very hard to find loh, this kind of person... Hahaha~ Was asking a colleague about why she needs her bf when she is such an independent woman herself. And her answer was simple: Companionship.

Ya, perhaps.... Sometimes it may not be that you die die need that person. It may just be cos it is NICE to have someone around, who will be there for you no matter what~ Yet to find that someone lah~

But have found someone to talk about things I feel like talking to liao~ Hahaha! So shall end blog here!